Class

Lately class has been going rough for me. My laptop was stolen out of my car and its becomming very difficult to get on a computer and complete my assignments. And when i am able to get on a computer it doesnt have the right software for me to do my assignments. Its getting really difficult and my grades are reflecting on it. I started out being a 4.0 student and now that i dont have my computer my GPA is gradually lowering. I starting to feel that i have over whelmed myself with school and work but i know its just the hard times. If i had my computer i would be fine but i have to still work at it and try as hard as i can to do what i need to do. I cant afford to buy another computer and the software all over again but im hoping i find out something quick.

IVE BEEN ROBBED.....

What i have been going through in the past 9 weeks is pure mess. I moved out of my parents house to try to stop stressing everything that was happening but it seemed to cause more stress. I moved into my friends house with her parents and things were going ok but then the day before yesterday I graduated from my other college because im attenting two of them right now and one of my guy friends invited about 15 of his female friends that i dont know and there ended up being a riot instead of a graduation party. EVERYBODY in the house was fighting because those girls came and some mess started. It was totally rediculous. Then, after that was finished the next day i go into work and come out to find that my computer has been stolen out of my car. I work at applenees in a well off neighborhood. I never wouldve thought someone wouldve did something like that. But lo and behold, i get to my car to see that my purse is turned upside down, they stole all my money out of my wallet which is everything i had, my digital camera was stolen, and now all i can think about is how im going to do my everyday assignments on my computer. I have to do my completed assignments over again. My rough draft for my paper, everything. Now i have to do all these papers over again and figure out what to do about my computer and my money cuz they took everything. Im just trying to stay on my schedule and do my work....But this is getting really hard. I hope things get better soon.

School has me.....

School is influencing my life up to this point in encouraging me to do well in life. I have a lot of school to go through before I can actually get to my career but I am motivated to get there. Every time I pass a test or finish an assignment I get that much more motivated to go through school and do well because if I look too far ahead I feel I will get discouraged at how much I have to do. If I encourage myself after each achievement it makes me want to go further. So right now school has me at a point of succeeding in life and climbing up the ladder. Its making me into who I want to be.

If someone used some of my work and didn’t give me proper credit I would be upset. I wouldn’t be ok with it because I put my hard work and own thought into what I created. I would want it to be known that it was my idea. This actually happened to me last quarter. I answered one of the discussion questions and put a lot of thought into what I said. The next day I read another one of my classmates work to do another response and I realized she copied and pasted all of my work. She stole my answer to the discussion question and reposted it as her own and then most of the other students replied to hers and not mine. I was upset because I felt like I was being bypassed after all the work I did. This is why it is proper to give the person credit who created whatever they created. Heck, I was ready to sue. : )

Thanksgiving WEEK

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!....I had so much fun this thanksgiving. I don’t think I’ve ever had this much fun for thanksgiving. Actually I don’t think I’ve had this much fun in a very long time. I normally don’t go out to clubs, parties, or basically anything that doesn’t involve studying. But this year I went house hopping and brought home maybe 3 or 4 plates with all kinds of foods. Me and some friends threw two house parties and invited all of our closest friends. We went to a club two nights in a row and we just stayed up all night tripping out with each other. It was so much fun. I needed a break too because I have that same routine of work, school, study all day every day. I also have a huge test coming up next month ( National Registry) and I’ve been studying so hard for it but I know my mind needed a break. But I hope all of you had as much of a fun time as I did. I’m still excited about how much fun I had.

HeLlO New ClAsSmAtEs

Hi everyone. My name is charity. I already had a blog created from one of my English classes from last semester at a different school so I just used the same one. But its nice to meet you all. I am looking forward to going through this unit and getting to know each and every one of you. I’m excited to read everyone’s blogs so I can find out who is as bubbly and left field as I am. I am 19 and I am attending two schools at the moment and working as an EMT. I know I have a lot of school to go through to become a doctor so I’d rather get through it as quickly as possible. I’m very impatient. I graduated high school at 16 and joined the military at 17. Now I’m in my third year of college and ready to start medical school. I love the color pink, I love to travel and learn new things. I think the human brain can hold a lot of material, we just have to choose what we will let our minds keep in them or not. Overall, I love to learn and advance in any way possible and I can’t wait to learn with my new classmates.

what i dislike about my job

The things I dislike about my job are the people I work with, the smell, and the constant changing schedule. The people that I work with are all pretty much grown. They are all about 40 years of age and they have been doing this for a long time. I am the only teenager that works where I work and it seems like I am more mature than the people I work with. When I come to work I see it as a job, not a popularity contest. I come to work, make my money, do my job, and go home, the ladies I work with think this is the center of their lives. Well, to some of them it very well may be the center of their lives but that doesn’t mean they have to act the way they do. I swear sometimes im in highschool again. All they do is gossip all day and talk bad about each other behind each others backs. None of them ever say anything to each others faces and when the person they were just talking about comes around, they act like they are all friendly with them lilke they didn’t say one bad thing out of their mouth about that person. they stab each other in the back and tell on each other like little children. One person will get mad at another for something and there they go running to the boss. No one ever has anything good to say about anybody or anything. Omg. Just shut up and work is what I want to say half the time. I try not to get involved with their issues. The smell in my workplace can also be unbearable at times. As soon as I walk in the building it smells of ammonia and defacation. I work with the elderly and on a daily basis there is someone defacating on themselves and they all wear depends so their person smells like urine at all times and I have to hang around these people. Do you know how hard it is to get the smell of urine out of your clothes? Well, think about twenty four people having that smell on them. I wont even get into what the defacation smells like. I lso hate the constant changing schedule. I get my schedule for the etire month ahead of time but every month my schedule changes and im either getting less or more money to my check. At first my scshedule was good and I was getting paid pretty well but it seems like each month im getting paid less and less and my hours are diminishing and I work every weekend. I never get a Friday, Saturday, or Sunday off and im beginning to look for another job.

what i want out of life

The things I want out of life are to travel, become successful, and be happy. In my lifetime I would like to experience things in different places. I would like to go back to my motherland and see where I came from. I want to experience different cultures, eat different foods, and see different environments. I want to see different things and learn different cultures. I want to try new sports and swim in the clear blue waters of other lands. I need to expand my horizons and keep my options open. I may not want to live in the united states when establish myself. I may want to be on the beaches of Jamaica or in the city of paris. I also want to become successful in life. I am currently in school right now and my goal right now is to get and maintain a GPA of at least 3.5. I have no room for error if I wish to get into a good medical school and become a doctor one day. I wish to grow in rank in the military and use them to help me gain experience and knowledge in the medical field. I hope to get accepted into a good medical school to practice surgery. I hope to become a plastic surgeon one day to help people who are in need. This job with gie me self fulfillment and it will help me provide for my family. I want to have maybe four to six children and I want to be able to give them everything they need and a lot of what they want. I want to be able to send each and every one of them to college without them having to take out loans or join the military to pay for school. I also want to simply achiee happiness. Whatever I do in life I just want to do it because it makes me happy. Not because it will gain me wealth or because someone told me to do it. I just want to be happy. Happiness is a hard goal to achieve in life but I think I can do it.

what i dont like about guys

The things I don’t like about guys is they think that they are slick, they try to win females over with money, and they try so hard for the chase but when they get what they want they don’t want it anymore. guys think they are so slick with the things they do. they really think they they are fooling somebody with their tired pickup lines they got off the internet or some mike epps comedy show. They think that if they buy you a drink at the bar or buy you dinner that it is made up in their mind that you owe them something. Why do they think they can buy females with a meal and a cup of liquid. Guys thik if they talk smooth and woo you that they can get whatever they want. But I have some news for them. no, it doesn’t work. we have it made up in our minds at the beginning of the night if we want to do something with a guy or not, and no matter what he does that’s not going to change our decision. I also hate it when guys try to win females over with money. I know guy who have with countless attempts tried to win me over with money. Some guy tried to get me to spend the night with him for a grand. Of course I didn’t do it. I was appalled at the action he took to get what he wanted. I also have had experience with a guy who all he did was talk about how much money he had and how much money he made and why he could do for me and what he could buy me. It sounded nice for a guy to do for me fr a change because my boyfriend doesn’t even buy me stuff but it didn’t work. I let him know that he should respect me and my decisions for not talking to him. That made him try even harder. But it didn’t work. I also hate it when guys act so nice and proper when you first meet them. they take u out on dates and they butter you up. They shower you with gifts and surprises at your doorstep to make you happy and win you over but as soon as they get you, they don’t know how to treat you. Its like their mins has a relapse and they forget how to treat a woman. No longer does all their attention belong to you , no longer do they try to make you happy, and no longer to they think they have to try to keep you. If guys work so hard to get something they should maintain whatever they did to get it to keep it.

things i dont like about females

The things I don’t like about females are they are full of drama, they are very devious, and they don’t know how to be good friends. Females don’t know how to be civilized to each other. They will do anything to make other female mad or upset. Females talk about each other like there is no tomorrow and they don’t know how to act. Females always want to show out in front of guys and make a big scene no matter what girl it is. A female can not know a girl and they try to embarrass them or try to fight them just because of a rumor that’s going around or just because a guy said something and another female got jealous. Its really retarded how females treat each other. Females are also very devius. They will do any and everything behind your back. If you have a dude you are trying to get at and your friend thinks he’s cute, she will try to get at him too. She will go behind your back and butter him up, talk to him all night, even perform sexual acts with him to get him before you do. females’ also talk a lot of gossip. They are constantly talking about someone’s hair, clothes, makeup, shoes, hair, and whatever else that they feel self conscious about. Female have very low self esteem so that makes them talk about other females to make themselves feel better and it just turns into a big circle of gossip. A lot of females’ don’t know how to be good friends. They will turn their back on you the minute things start looking bad for them. if they don’t like one thing you do they will stab you in the back as hard as possible and turn the knife in circles to make sure they get the most pain out of it as possible. Females are very grimy and they don’t know how to act. That’s why I rarely have females as friends. I’d rather not join myself in the turmoil of feminism.

more dislikes of my guy

More things I don’t like about my guy is that he only cares about himself, he is a porno pervert, and he is a compulsive liar. I hate that he only cares about himself because as his girlfriend I want him to care about me. I want him to show concern for me and show me that he cares about what I feel and how I am doing. But I can honestly say that I havnt felt one bit of concern coming from him at all. I want him to love me. I want him to show countless acts of benevolence towards me and others so I can feel loved by him. He can go to the store and et himself something to eat, come home talking about how good he ate, and never ask me did I want a thing. He never would bring me home something to eat when he got something, and when he went to the store he never asked me did I need anything. And if he did ask me did I need anything he would forget to get it. My guy is also a porno pervert. I hate it when guys watch pornos because that is the most disgusting thing to me that a guy can do. how can u masterbate to something like that on a daily basis. He used to be late for school because he would be trying to masterbate to a porno. To me this is a very disgusting act and its driving me away. He can masterbate to a porno maybe five or six times a day and is getting really bad. Im going to go on strike and not give him a thing until he gets rid of all his movies because it is ruining our relationship and he knows it. He is also a compulsive liar. Ive seen the way he lies to other people within a split second. He comes up with lies so easily and he has no change in his actions when he lies like he can care less that hes lying. ive seen him lie to so many people so many times, I don’t know what else he may be lying about. I believe he may well be lying to me on a daily basis because how do I know he isn’t lying. Everything that comes out of his mouth is a lie and he expects me to believe him when he says he doesn’t lie to me. That could be a lie within itself. I don’t trust him for these reasons alone. I don’t know why he expects me to.

things i dont like abou tmy guy

The things I don’t like about my guy are that he is very unorganized, he never does what he says he is going to do, and he has a really bad flirting habit. I understand the natural guy need for living in a room that look like a disaster just hit it, but there has to be a line drawn somewhere. My guy is so unorganized he doesn’t know what he is doing from one minute to the next. He forgets everything he is supposed to do because he doesn’t keep track of anything he does. You can ask him to go to the movies at 5pm and at 4 pm he will take on another task that prevents him from going to the movies at 5 because he forgot about it. His room is a disaster. He doesn’t even sleep on his bed because its way too occupied by his wardrobe. When he washes clothes he just dumps them on his bed and never folds them. he picks and chooses what he wants to wear from the pile on his bed and he sleeps on the floor beside his bed in a sleeping bad. He is always late for work, and no I don’t mean a few minutes late or half an hour late, he is always 3 and 4 hours late to work. normal things that would get normal people fired on the first sign of trouble. He is very unresponsible and he doesn’t take responsibility for any of his actions. Another thing I don’t like is that he never does what he says he is going to do. he can say he will clean his room and the same sock will be sitting on his tv for months. He can say he will pick up something from the store for me one day and he end up forgetting every time he goes out somehow. He can say he will turn right and immediately turn left. I just don’t understand how I can trust him if everything that comes out of his mouth is a lie. He also has a bad flirting habit that I cant stand. Two months into us dating he was all over myspace asking females for their numbers and flirting with every female he came in contact with. He doesn’t know how to control himself. He as a big flirt in highschool because he felt the need to be the center of attention and it gave him a higher self esteem when he felt like people wanted him so be was a flirt. He has been out of school for three years and he still hasn’t gotten out of that habit. He needs to soon though because the more he flirts the less I want to be with him. His attention should be on me not trying to make other females like him.

what i love about my guy

My boyfriend has a lot of good qualities and I love the person he is growing to be. Three things I like about my guy are that he always tries to make people laugh, I can relate to him because is is really goofy like me, and he stands out from the rest. When he tries to make people laugh he always says some funny joke. If someone is feeling down or the mood is tense, or even if everyone is already in a good mood, he tries to make it better by a funny comment or observation. He laughs a lot and is a very happy person. Things rarely get him down. When it comes to us having things in common, we have the goofy quality. We are two individuals who like to have fun and who see life in a different aspect of what it really is. We try to keep things happy. Sometimes other people don’t understand the way we act because we have our own way of doing things but we make each other happy. Sometimes we get on each others nerves because one person will want to be goofy when the other wants to be serious and vice versa. But the good thing is that we have fun together and we try to keep each other smiling no matter what the situation was. The way my guy stands out is that he is different from everyone surrounding him. Usually when your environment is wrong, your family is wrong, and all you know is wrong, you end up being wrong also. But this isn’t the case with my guy. His environment is hood and ghetto. His family is loud and rambunctious. His friends don’t have a vocabulary other than bitch and baby mama, and his school was nothing more than a penitentiary full of rapists, mongrels, and robbers. But my guy turned out different somehow. I don’t know what happened to make him how he is but I like it. He isn’t the “I want to be gangster” type. He wears fitting clothes that look nice. He has bigger goals in life than just working at some local venue for life, and he knows how to talk. He doesn’t speak slang, or try to fit in with the rest, but just is himself. That’s what attracted me to him most. He was different.

friends

I have a lot of different types of friends from a lot of different places from all over the world. I love my friends because they make me feel like I belong somewhere in this ginormous world. I have friends that are big, some are small, some are skinny, some are tall, But there not just one word that can explain my best friend who has helped me in so many ways in my life. I have moved to so many different states and schools in my life ive met a lot of great people. I have hundreds of acquaintances all over the world. I can say that I honestly don’t have too many friends though. Real friends are really hard to come by. I believe that real friends are loyal, they always have your back, and they will tell you the truth no matter what. They try to make you feel good when you are down; they make sure you are always getting the best that you can get. That’s what my best friend is like. She always has my back. When I was in the deepest troubles she helped me out and she kept me stress free. Usually the acquaintances in your life will be cool with you but they won’t have your back. They will be the first ones to run when you are in trouble. They will stab u in the back when theirs is at stake. They will be no where to be found when you need somebody to lean on. They will agree with everybody when they are talking about you behind your back. These people are people that id rather not associate myself with. I do not wish to put myself in situations where I am going to be in trouble all the time and when I need somebody I won’t have anybody. I always want to keep real friends around me and that’s what life is about. Friends, family, and happiness.

Summer

this summer is finally comming up. I am a full time student right now and i also work full time. it has been getting harder day to day to work full time, go to school full time and still make good grades. i can say my GPA has gradually dropped since last semester because of my work schedule while provides me little time for productive study. i feel like i am always cramming so much work into the little time that i have to study. i dont normally struggle to pass a class but since ive been working so much its hard to stay on a good study schedule, and i have failed to keep up my grades. i am ready to let summer come because i am really getting burnt out from the work load. i was going to go to summer school so i can get a few more credits out the way but i really could use a break right now. im ging to get my mind together and refresh this summer and quit my job for next semester. i wont be able to work because i need to attain my good GPA. so that i can achieve the grades i really want i am going to quit my job and move back in with my parents so that i can put my focus mainly on school and later get into a good medical school. i am hoping to transfer to mercer university so that i can run track for them and get a fair chance in winning something. but for no wi know i want to hang this summer. have fun and travel. i want to visit my friends and family in california, texas, and spend some time in florida to hang out. i really want to just relax this summer so i can get the work load off my back and get ready for the strict study of my new school semester.

Life’s plan

People always create a life where they think of a plan and they hope o god that it all comes true. Rarely does life go as one individual plans it because things happen everyday that alter your plans. People make choices that alter their plans for them, and life makes choices that change the course of things. I thought I had my life totally planned out. I wanted to join the air force as a reservist. Finish up my four years of school to get my bachelors. Go to medical school and find the love of my life there. I wanted to have a house of my own in a nice area to start my family in. I wanted to have five kids, retire out of the military at 37, start my own surgical practice, and live life the way I want to live it. Going to different countries and traveling has always been a dream of mine. I want to see different things with my family and share the world with my children. Little did I know life had different plans for me? Things happened a little out of order then what I wanted it to do in the first place. I’m still working on getting my bachelors and I currently live with my boyfriend. I just found out I was pregnant. So, now I’m having a baby and hopefully getting married before I even finish my first degree. I don’t know when I will be getting my own practice or travel the nation, but I know I’m going to go where the wind takes me. I’m happy where I am right now and I feel that’s all that matters in life.

Television

Television is a big part of my life now. In the past year I didn’t watch too much TV because I was in basic training and tech school so I always had something to do besides watch TV, I got used to life without TV so it didn’t even really interest me anymore. But now I’m living a life where I watch television a lot. I’m at work for twelve hours a night and there is a TV in the area where I work so that 12 hours at TV. When I get out of school I come home, crawl into bed, turn on the TV, and fall asleep to it so that’s 2 more hours a day watching TV. I am watching about 15 hours of TV daily. Do u know how much could get done in fifteen hours of time? If I wasn’t watching TV all the time I could be doing my homework, studying, and getting better grades. I could get all my errands done. I could drive halfway across the country. TV also has an effect on people’s daily lives and how I live. It’s weird that whatever I see on TV is what I think about when I’m not watching TV. Images on TV make you want to imitate things you see, like music videos, Hollywood, babies, families and crazy jobs. TV makes you live in a different fake world in your mind. It’s like you make up this life in your head that you live on a daily basis, and you want to do the things you see on TV, but you never do, because you never get from in front of the TV. I just think that if we didn’t have TV’s the world would be smarter and more productive. Inventors would invent, children would play, and there would be no obese children in America. Life would e healthier without TV’s. But good thing we do have TV’s because when I get bored, I like to watch it.

My baby

About three days ago I found out that I was pregnant with my boyfriend’s baby. Ok, let me tell you how it all started. I was living in an apartment with a roommate that I had that went psycho. She wouldn’t clean anything and she always had random guys coming in and out of the apartment so I couldn’t stand being there. She always fussed and argued about petty stuff like a little child. So I never went home. Well, I never had any time to be home in the first place because I worked twelve hours a night then went to school for four hours a day, then had to run errands, study, get some rest, and do whatever I needed to do, then go back to work. In between everything I just would go to my boyfriend’s house and try to get some rest instead of going home. My roommate started getting worse and worse with acting like a child so I decided to move out. When I moved out my boyfriend said that I could come live with him and I've been living with him ever since. I guess living with him made us get a little too comfortable because when we got intimate we never used protection and he never pulled out. We were being ignorant at the fact that something could happen. We knew something could happen but we didn’t care. We were going to do what we wanted to do. Well, a few days ago I found out I was pregnant and now I don’t know what to do. At first I always said that I could get an abortion if this ever happened and I didn’t want it to. But since it happened things have changed. This baby is a part of me and I don’t want to get rid of it. My boyfriend is for abortion but he is getting used to the idea of me keeping. My parents think we should get married and start our lives together and I don’t think it’s a bad idea but he isn’t hearing that. He isn’t ready to get ready and now I feel like I’m dealing with it by myself. I’m not sure what to do but I know he better come around to doing something soon because I’m tired of doing this alone.

Life is funny

The way life goes is kind of funny. Since the beginning of this year, nothing has gone too good for me. I do not understand where this is all coming from! Was I that bad of a child or did I do something so bad that God had to get me back in every way possible. This just doesn’t make sense to me. It is the beginning of the year 2009 and I can truly say that since the very second of the beginning of the year nothing has gone right. I just wish that things could go good for me. Right now I feel as if things are going wrong because I don’t have God in my life anymore. My father is a preacher and his father is a preacher and many of my uncles are pastors and ministers in the church. I was basically raised in the church very religiously with very strict rules and guidelines to live by. In the past couple of years I have almost shut god totally out of my life and that’s when things started going wrong. My schooling started getting messed up, I was never stable. I was always upset or borderline depressed. I couldn’t think straight. I started doing things I never thought id do in my life. I couldn’t go to work without getting stressed out. All the college work I did didn’t matter because my credits didn’t transfer so I did a semester for no reason. I went to basic training. The hell of my life just to go to tech school and get targeted by a racist Bogart and get kicked out for chewing gum in class. I didn’t think I deserved what was going on but things never got better. I kept god out of my life and things continued to get worse. Now I'm starting to understand that I can’t do anything without him. He is my rock, my soul, my salvation and things will only get better if I continue to live by his will. I can no longer do things my way; I need to do things his way. My life will succeed once I start doing what I’m supposed to do and live by his word. I wonder what will happen next.

Ex-roomate

Payback is something that should happen when somebody does something to you that you didn’t deserve. Well. Even if you did deserve it, no one likes to be bamboozled. So always think of ways to pay people back if they do something to you. That’s what I always do. I used to have this roommate that was always doing things wrong and getting away with it. I was never her friend. I was just nice to her because she payed the other half of the bills. I might have liked her had she not been a ghetto house whore that had no morals or home training whatsoever. She always brought guys in and out the house continuously. Having sex with each and every one of them on different nights was becoming her job. She was always in an argument with somebody about nothing. She was always doing wrong things and getting away with them like stealing, cheating in school, lying on her fafsa, and food stamps. She was a disgusting person. She never cleaned up after herself, always left crap all over the house, and complained about me not doing my part. She had to have lost her mind because obviously she didn’t have one anywhere near her. After a while she started picking fights with me for no reason. I was gone all the time because I have an over night job and a boyfriend, and she annoyed the hell out of me so I didn’t like coming home. I always stayed at my boyfriend’s house. Every time I came home there was something else to clean up. It was getting ridiculous, so I decided to move out. When I told her she could find a new roommate she flipped her switch and started yelling and acting like the barbarian I always knew she was. I started moving out so she decided to put on a show and act out and try to fight me. I ignored her and kept packing my stuff. She brought her little friends over the house and her mom to come and act like immature little children towards me. So I decided to deal with it my own way so I was on the safe end. I told her landlord that she had illegal cable and internet which she did. I also told her that she let her male friends smoke weed in the apartments, which she also did. I also went to the school and told the school about her cheating habits, and we all know what happens when you cheat in college. You get the boot. So lesson learned on what not to do. Don’t air your dirty laundry and expect it to come back clean. Now her schooling and her home is gone. and why? Because she decided to act her shoe size and not her age.

Troubles all around

I seem to be stressed out a lot. In my life nothing ever seems to go right, but just when I feel like nothing can go worse in my life, it gets worse. I had the worst day ever the other day. I woke up ready for my day after a long night of studying hard. I was ready to take my test in school just knowing I was going to pass it. Within an hour later I found that I had failed the test. When I was moving out, I put a lot of my items in a storage unit and before I moved in, the unit manager told me that I shouldn’t leave trash laying around because id have to pay for it to be removed. Well when I was putting my stuff in the storage unit my cousin decided to throw a trash bag full of my old mail on the ground for pick up next to a pile of old furniture someone left laying around. Well. Nobody comes to pick up anything because your not supposed to throw trash out there in the first place. Well after I found out my test was a failure, I got a call from my storage unit telling me that I needed to pick up all my trash out of the unit or I wont be able to keep my stuff in the unit anymore. I got blamed for all the furniture that was sitting out there because I had the bag full of mail with my name on it. Can u say hard evidence or what? I don’t know how I get traced to everything no matter if I did it or not. Im just not someone you want to do something wrong around because you are definitely going to get caught. Then to top it off, my boyfriend came home to tell me a complaint was filed on me at work. Someone told my boss that me and another employee had been sleeping while we were at work. That is some messed up bologa and im done with being stressed out over a bunch of crap I have no control over. So I rewoud a bit, Smoked a black, and hopped in the shower. I was soon joined in the shower by my man who wanted to wash my back ad help rinse me off. He also gave me a massage when we got out. Then we played WWf smackdown in the bedroom when he was done. Im not worried about those things anymore. What a great stress reliever my man is.

Relationship problems

Normal relationships are always going to have their little tiffs and problems, but it seems like mine has them slightly more often than normal. My guy and me get into little disagreements on a regular basis. We get into arguments over the smallest things that shouldn’t even matter. We love each other so much, but we are so different its hard for us to live together. We recently moved in together and im starting to see things about my boyfriend that I didn’t see before. He is a very messy person although I shouldve known that because most guys in their twenties are. He says hes going to do a lot of things that he never does or he just says hes going to do them over and over again. For example, he has been telling me that he is going to keep the room clean for about a month now. Has it happened? No! as soon as he walks in the door he takes off his shoes in the middle of the floor, strips down to get into the shower and leaves his clothes all over the floor, and never picks up his stuff. I expect him to be tired a lot because of the simple fact that he gets up at 3 am to go to work and he comes home around 2, but it doesn’t make it ok to throw his stuff everywhere. It bugs me because im the one always cleaning up. Im also the one that’s always tripping over his ginormous shoes. Another thing that bugs me is when he takes a shower, he uses a different towel everyday. Ok, now he wants to have sanitary issues. Does he think of who is folding the laundry all the time? No! He also believes that my food is his food no matter who bought it. Uh, no. my food is my food no matter who bought it. If I decide to give you some that’s my choice, not your right as my boyfriend, and I don’t have to say yes to giving you any at all. He also always cuts me off in the middle of my sentences when im talking to talk, or get on the phone. He does uneccessary spending on things he wants instead of things he needs. He will starve for a week because he’ll buy a 400 dollar phone. Things like these bug me so much we get into arguments because I ask him nicely to do something different and he says he will, but he never does. Then he gets upset that im nagging him. Well, I wouldn’t have to nag him if he would just do what I asked him to in the first place.

Some Guys are sick, why do they think females are stupid

Ok. For one. I don’t know why guys can treat females any kind of way and get away with
it like its supposed to happen, then blame the female if she doesn’t want something to happen. Guys are getting ridiculous nowadays. They are starting to be more open with their pervertish ways. I went to go get my breaks fixed at the store the other day, and these two guys were inspecting it to see how much they would cost. When they were done I asked how much would it come to and one guy replied “ I’ll do it for 50 bucks and some back”, meaning he wanted my body for some body work done on my car, had he lost his mind? Another guy has been trying to talk to me and one of my co workers for the longest time. When he doesn’t get his way with one female he goes to her friend. He asked her did she want to have sex with him, and when she said no he had the nerve to ask me. Did he think we werent going to tell each other. He tried to buy me some new items that I wanted to go out on a date with him. It was getting ridiculous. I couldn’t stand it anymore. I wanted to bomb him and break his stuff. Guys don’t even know how to approach a female anymore. They think every female is a hoodrat. Every time a guy tries to stop me in the store or the mall he yells from across the mall “ ay, ay girl, come here” yea right! If they think thats going to get my attention, they have another thing coming. Then when I tell a guy that I already have a boyfriend, he decides to not care and keep proceeding with the current conversation thinking hes going to get whats in front of him. Uh yea, NOT! Then when you meet some guys they try to be your friend for as long as you have a boyfriend, then the minute you and your boyfriend break up thy want to try to put the moves on you like u didn’t know what they were up to in the first place. You just tried to give them the benefit of the doubt. I also know some guys who have over fifty porn movies and keeps old female underwear from past relations with females. That’s gross. Who wants to find another females underwear in their guys room when they just noticed that a pair of their own undies have gone missing.

WHY

They say things happen for a reason, but wouldnt you like to know what that reason is sometimes. life would be alot easier if you could figure out the reason behind things. Sometimes your going along in your day and things just start going down hill for you. You wake up and bump your head on the dresser, you trip down the stairs, you get to work to find out you dont have a job anymore, you get locked out your car, you get in a fight with the person you thought loved you most, and you just dont know why these things are happening. first you wonder what have you done wrong. Then you try to reason out how karma is coming back on you, or how you just have bad luck. well, everything happens for a reason. we may not know the reason making these complications a little more discouraging, but everything happens for a reason. You may be wanting to go to a party one night and you get down half the road and your car shuts off in the middle of the street, your complaining on how your going to be late for the party and how your car is a piece of junk, when later you find out that a few miles up there was a fifteen car pile up in the road and had you kept going, you probably would have been one of those cars. When you loose a job that you wanted to keep so bad, you wonder what could you have done to keep the job, or why were you the weakling in the bunch, but this job loss gave you a job opening to something better in life. i always wonder why things happen. is there some big plan of how my life is going to get better, or is it just karma getting me back from the wrong ive done in my lifetime. i dont know but someday i hope to find out.

ThE tHiNgS I MiSsEd OuT oN

Being a preacher’s daughter and a military brat is something I don’t wish upon anyone. Growing up was like living in a bubble that didn’t fit outside my front door. When I was younger I just went about the routine of things since that was all I knew. I went to church 4 times a week. Monday, bible study. Tuesday was prayer night. Friday was Christian education and Sunday, well, you know the regular one. I didn’t think much of it until I started growing older. I started noticing kids at school doing other things. More fun things, like cheerleading, gymnastics, soccer, Having sleepovers with their friends. I cant remember one sleepover I had as a child, and that’s because I didn’t have any. The only people ive had sleep over when I was younger were my cousins. The only thing I can remember doing with my friends when I was younger, was celebrating my birthday. But that was before my parents split up. Every year my mom would throw me a huge pool party and I could invite all of my friends and whoever else wanted to come. I had the best times at those parties. When my parents split up, I said goodbye to fun birthdays under march twenty-first. After that I didn’t have anymore birthday parties. My dad wouldn’t throw me one and my mom was gone. My sisters and I didn’t have too much fun outside of each other. In high school I missed out on all the parties, homecoming, sleepovers, everything. I got invited to prom every year I was in high school and never got to go to one of them. I was even voted to be homecoming queen , but the day after they announced my win, I left to another state to live. I didn’t get to claim my crown or even enjoy a week of knowing I was going to be queen, or enjoy the activities the homecoming queen does to get ready for the big football game. I believe I missed out on a lot when I was younger but I will get it back somehow. A lot of people say you shouldn’t live through your kids, but that’s exactly what in going to do. Who is anyone to tell me what to do with my kids? I need a life too.

MY NEW JOB

I just got a new job at this assistant living place called Jamestown. I’m really starting to get use to this job and the routine of the things that go on there. Before I had this job I was really struggling to keep up with my bills. I had recently been fired from my previous job at hooters, working as a waitress. I made ok money there but I didn’t get many hours and I only worked about 3 days a week which wasn’t taking care of my money business. After a few months of working there, I had a few run-ins with the manager and he terminated me. I had rent due, my car insurance bill, cell bill, utilities, and credit card bills due, and I had no way of getting the money. I talked to my boyfriend about losing my job and trying to get another one that had something to do with my career field so, I could get some experience to add to my resume. He introduced me to his aunt that put in a good word for me at her job. About two weeks later I got the job and it couldn’t have happened at a better time. Now I was getting some experience that I could add to my resume, more hours, and a more respectful reputation. But I don’t think anything could’ve prepared me for the things I was about to go through. Usually working at the assistant living place was pretty easy going. I had to help a few people do some daily activities like getting to the restroom, or taking a shower, just simple things. But as I started working there a little longer, I started witnessing some crazy things. Some of the people living there would do things to get attention, or were just plain out of their minds. This was an ASSISSTANT living place, not a nursing home. Some of the ladies staying there would get out of their wheel chairs, get on the floor, and act like they fell to get attention. I’ve seen one women try to bite one of the nursing assistants. Some of them ring the emergency bell for us to come to their room just to bring them milk and cookies. These women are getting too carried away with. I mean I help them do things they really need done, but I am not going to help someone be lazy. Especially from doing something they know they should be doing. I love that this new job can help me pay my bills, but I think someone needs to put a small change in the way this place gets down. That person might just be ME.

WhAt We ToUcH EvErYdAy

Have you ever realized how germs get spread so fast? Well I just realized that people go through a heap of touching throughout the day that help spread them. When you think about it, its really gross to realize the things we expose our bodies to everyday without even thinking. In public places everyone touches the same things causing even more germs to be spread. thank God for our immune systems, or we would all be sick puppies all the time. From the beginning of your day you wake up and touch the sink knob, which many other people have touched after they used the restroom. Breakfast is made, and most breakfast foods are touched with your hands, like bagels, granola bars, pop tarts and so on. So right now we have germs traveling from the bathroom to your mouth. When you go out for the day to school or to work, you touch every door with your bare hands that you have to go through, not thinking about how many other peple have touched that same door just that morning who have bad hygiene habits. They may have used the restroom without washing their hands, sneezed or coughed into their hands then grabbed the door furthering their sickness to your precious palms. Someone may have scratched a spot on their body that isnt seen by the public, cleaned up some throw up from a bad hangover, took out some month old trash, changed a diaper, missed the tissue while wiping and got their hand, sweated everywhere from a morning jog, or any other disgusting thing lazy, or normal humans may do on a dialy basis. After everything i just listed, think about the kinds of things we do after touching a public door knob, keyboard, car handle, shopping cart, or tongs from a public restaurants buffet. We go and touch other things like our personal items. After we expose our bodies to all those harmful germs we go and touch our cell phones, purses, pens and pencils, faces, other peoples hands, or eat a snack with our hands. Then we go and pass the process touching everything that we need to complete a daily activity. Picking up our children and touching their faces while you kiss their cheek and handing them food to put in thri mouths. Then coming home and tracking the germ trail around the house for them to pick up and get sick by. People touch alot of things throughout the day and alot of different germs get spread. Thats why the simpliest. most easy way to keep germs from spreading is by washing our hands often. Boy those scientists werent far off when they told everybody to wash their hands with antibacterial soap were they.

my new job

hello, my name is charity, and i just started a new job two days ago. This job is at an assisstant living facility. I worked at Hooters at first but then i felt like i needed something that i can put on my resume, so i got a new job. this new job gives me more hours and more money, so thats good. At hooters i had to dress up everyday, be in perfect shape, put on tons of makeup, get harrassed by old, crusty, guys, and i didnt even get that many hours, or enough pay for what i did. At my new job. I get way more hours, and im getting experience with working with people. When i first started i didnt know how to deal with it because i didnt know how to act around the elderly. i didnt know how they would take to me, and i didnt want to offend anyone, but when i got to working i started feeling more comfortable working around them. On my first day i took vital signs which is blood pressure, pulse, and respirations. This was the first thing i had to do when i came in. I had to do it to all 24 members of the facility. Taking vitals got me use to interacting with them. But I also had to help them use the restroom, take baths, and get into bed. Throughout the day i have to help them travel to and from dinner, and with whatever else they need to do on a daily basis. Im really starting to like this job, and it helping me pay bills alot more than my oher job. I also do alot less work at my new job. I hope i keep it for a while because i want to work there as long as possible.

If I had a million dollars...

If i had a million dollars first i would pay off everything i have so i wouldnt have any bills for the next five years. I would pay my cell bill until the end of the contract. I would pay my car insurance for the next five years. I would pay my rent off until my lease date was up. I would pay my cell bill until the end of the contract. I would pay all my credit cards off. Then I would get to the good stuff. After everything is paid off i would start four different savings accounts so i can make more money. I would buy a nice house in the suburbs, and furnish it beautifully. Then i would take myself and a friend on a cruise after setting aside 200 grand for medical school. In that cruise i would go to multiple countries, just relaxing and having a good time. I would buy toys for my two little brothers, gifts for my parents and then just start living like normal. Money doesnt make me a different person, but i would sure like to get rid of some of my bills. After all of my bills were paid, i would just live life normally. Maybe i would take myself and some friends out to dinner once a week. I would set some aside for a few vacations over the summer to some remote spots. Take myself, and my boyfriend on a safari trip to Africa to see the jungles, and animals out in the wild. I would maybe make a few adjustments to my wardrobe. Not much, but make it more professional. Right now i cant afford too many professional clothing because of the cost, but i do what i can. I would also invest some money in my own business. Maybe start my own practice when i get out of medical school, so i wouldnt have to take any loans out. I would also probably customize my backyard for my children when i have them. Ive always wanted to create a great backyard for my kids, so they wouldnt be bored. I would put a swimming pool with a slide, and a jacuzzi out there. A sand pit, and fire wood so they can sit around and have bomb fires, or roast marshmellows. I would have a playground with swings and monkey bars, and a huge slide. I would get them built a tree house with a tire swing. I would put a trampoline out there with a bow and arrow set to shoot a target. Their backyard would be their getaway. If i had a million dollars, i would just live.

guys with problems....

When You're getting to know a guy, dont you hate it when they have so many problems you know theres no way they are getting a chance with you. I hate that too. Guys think they have to be a player or a baller all the time. Why cant they just be nice? Simple things are what gets girls. I like cliche things like when a guy brings me roses, or surprises me with a picnic for just me and him. Some guys dont even know the simple things like opening doors, carrying bags, driving the car, talking respectfully. where are the good ones. Some guys are just duds,Like milk duds. Noone likes them but there are always so many of them laying around. When you meet a guy and you're getting along with him so well, and he seems to be a nice guy. But then he flips the script and turns into a milk dud. He invites you out to eat and he orders his food first when the waitor askes. He gets the most expensive thing on the menu, and tell you to get whatever you like. You think you're getting treated to a nice dinner by a guy that has something going for himself. When he gets his food, he eats with his hands, then licks his fingers afterwards. When the check comes,he askes you to pick up the tab. His cousin Bo Bo calls him and tells him he needs his car back, so he wants you to drive to your house, get your car,and take him back home. Then you find out he has twelve brothers and sisters. All with different mothers. He has no job, but somehow he gets ten dollars a week. He sleeps on the couch in his grandmothers house. He has two babies on the way, and he wants you to have number three. hes growing this weird bacteria on the side of his finger. He smokes weed and calls it the medicine of life. He always asks you to drop him off somewhere, or bring him some fast food. he always wants to know if he can hold a dollar to get his baby some diapers from the ten cent store, and the list continues. There arent many good guys left out there anymore but i am determined to find one.

I Hate it When......

In this world today there are things that infuriate me to the highest level possible. things that make me want to scream, play in traffic, die on an instant, or stab myself in the eyes with a fork. No im not mentally disturbed, or one of those pessimistic people who see life with the glass half empty. I totally see life with the glass half full, and i love animals and helping poor people. But those darn dumb things in life just tick the mess out of me. its like one of those things that you get so annoyed at you cant do anything but stare in awe with your mouth wide open or sit in a padded room and bang your head against the wall all day and be totally satisfied and content with what you did that day. Lets begin. I hate it when you're about to be late to going to an appointment, and you're only five minutes away. But every stop light wants to turn yellow right before you get to the point of no return and you have to stop on red. Then the light takes an extra long time to turn green. I hate it when you take your time to write an extra long essay and your friend decides to play a trick on you and hold down the backspace button while you are talking with them, me not noticing that my wonderful piece of work is being deleted, forcing me to start over and think more than the required amount for the day. I hate it when you are standing in on place having a conversation with somebody or looking at something and someone else stands right in front of you, almost touching you as if you were never standing there in the first place. I hate when people interrupt me in the middle of a sentence. I hate it when people litter. i hate it when old men jog around town, with a hairy chest and wear nothing but a pair of daisy duke shorts, shoes, and ear phones. I hate it when i see an over sized cheerleader. We know shes not a tumbler. I hate it when guys wear grills and think its the coolest thing in the world. I also Hate it when people walk out the bathroom without washing their hands. There are alot of things that get on my nerves, but we dont have a century to explain them all. Ill let you get back to your life now.

New Years Complex

Look, For some reason, people go on about the New Years talking about how they're going to change their lives for it. Stopping bad habits and creating good ones is on the list of becoming a better person for these people. Having a New years Resolution thats going to last no longer than two weeeks is what everyone seems to have on the new years to do list. It's almost like they think at the stroke of midnight, something marvelous is going to happen, and the world is going to become a better place. All the puppies and kitties will get along, and unicorns will come out of the rainbow and give people rides to never never land. Now me, I dont think so. Nope, not me. All I wanted to do was have a good New years. Who cares about the rest of the year. It's going to go the same as last year. But on New Years Eve, give me something. Let me have a good time. Let me get loose and not get in trouble. I want that fairy tale kiss at 11:59:59 by someone I really care about. Let me get drunk, and sleep in the next night. I want to wake up the next morning with pictures of the awesome time I had the night before, but in my life, things dont always go as I want them to. Wait, I take that back. Things never go as I want them to. This is how my New Years Eve/New years went. First of all my boyfriend wasnt even planning on being with me that night because he had to work at his club which I always go to on the weekends. I thought it was a given that I would be accompaning him that night at the club, but he was talking like I wouldnt even see him. Of course I brought it up and he invited me to be his date. When the countdown to New years began, he was no where to be found. He was off somewhere running a case of beer to the cooler behind the bar. He tried to give me my first kiss of the year five minutes later but it was too late. My moment was ruined, and there was no way to get it back until 365 more days. At my job i was picked to become a model for the company calender, but being fired two days later squashed my chances at that. Things couldnt have gone worse for me at the beginning of this year, and there is nothing to look forward to for the rest of it. I just want to live, be loved, and kill time with the exciting adventures of my everyday jigsaw puzzles called my life.