New Years Complex

Look, For some reason, people go on about the New Years talking about how they're going to change their lives for it. Stopping bad habits and creating good ones is on the list of becoming a better person for these people. Having a New years Resolution thats going to last no longer than two weeeks is what everyone seems to have on the new years to do list. It's almost like they think at the stroke of midnight, something marvelous is going to happen, and the world is going to become a better place. All the puppies and kitties will get along, and unicorns will come out of the rainbow and give people rides to never never land. Now me, I dont think so. Nope, not me. All I wanted to do was have a good New years. Who cares about the rest of the year. It's going to go the same as last year. But on New Years Eve, give me something. Let me have a good time. Let me get loose and not get in trouble. I want that fairy tale kiss at 11:59:59 by someone I really care about. Let me get drunk, and sleep in the next night. I want to wake up the next morning with pictures of the awesome time I had the night before, but in my life, things dont always go as I want them to. Wait, I take that back. Things never go as I want them to. This is how my New Years Eve/New years went. First of all my boyfriend wasnt even planning on being with me that night because he had to work at his club which I always go to on the weekends. I thought it was a given that I would be accompaning him that night at the club, but he was talking like I wouldnt even see him. Of course I brought it up and he invited me to be his date. When the countdown to New years began, he was no where to be found. He was off somewhere running a case of beer to the cooler behind the bar. He tried to give me my first kiss of the year five minutes later but it was too late. My moment was ruined, and there was no way to get it back until 365 more days. At my job i was picked to become a model for the company calender, but being fired two days later squashed my chances at that. Things couldnt have gone worse for me at the beginning of this year, and there is nothing to look forward to for the rest of it. I just want to live, be loved, and kill time with the exciting adventures of my everyday jigsaw puzzles called my life.