Life’s plan

People always create a life where they think of a plan and they hope o god that it all comes true. Rarely does life go as one individual plans it because things happen everyday that alter your plans. People make choices that alter their plans for them, and life makes choices that change the course of things. I thought I had my life totally planned out. I wanted to join the air force as a reservist. Finish up my four years of school to get my bachelors. Go to medical school and find the love of my life there. I wanted to have a house of my own in a nice area to start my family in. I wanted to have five kids, retire out of the military at 37, start my own surgical practice, and live life the way I want to live it. Going to different countries and traveling has always been a dream of mine. I want to see different things with my family and share the world with my children. Little did I know life had different plans for me? Things happened a little out of order then what I wanted it to do in the first place. I’m still working on getting my bachelors and I currently live with my boyfriend. I just found out I was pregnant. So, now I’m having a baby and hopefully getting married before I even finish my first degree. I don’t know when I will be getting my own practice or travel the nation, but I know I’m going to go where the wind takes me. I’m happy where I am right now and I feel that’s all that matters in life.

Television

Television is a big part of my life now. In the past year I didn’t watch too much TV because I was in basic training and tech school so I always had something to do besides watch TV, I got used to life without TV so it didn’t even really interest me anymore. But now I’m living a life where I watch television a lot. I’m at work for twelve hours a night and there is a TV in the area where I work so that 12 hours at TV. When I get out of school I come home, crawl into bed, turn on the TV, and fall asleep to it so that’s 2 more hours a day watching TV. I am watching about 15 hours of TV daily. Do u know how much could get done in fifteen hours of time? If I wasn’t watching TV all the time I could be doing my homework, studying, and getting better grades. I could get all my errands done. I could drive halfway across the country. TV also has an effect on people’s daily lives and how I live. It’s weird that whatever I see on TV is what I think about when I’m not watching TV. Images on TV make you want to imitate things you see, like music videos, Hollywood, babies, families and crazy jobs. TV makes you live in a different fake world in your mind. It’s like you make up this life in your head that you live on a daily basis, and you want to do the things you see on TV, but you never do, because you never get from in front of the TV. I just think that if we didn’t have TV’s the world would be smarter and more productive. Inventors would invent, children would play, and there would be no obese children in America. Life would e healthier without TV’s. But good thing we do have TV’s because when I get bored, I like to watch it.

My baby

About three days ago I found out that I was pregnant with my boyfriend’s baby. Ok, let me tell you how it all started. I was living in an apartment with a roommate that I had that went psycho. She wouldn’t clean anything and she always had random guys coming in and out of the apartment so I couldn’t stand being there. She always fussed and argued about petty stuff like a little child. So I never went home. Well, I never had any time to be home in the first place because I worked twelve hours a night then went to school for four hours a day, then had to run errands, study, get some rest, and do whatever I needed to do, then go back to work. In between everything I just would go to my boyfriend’s house and try to get some rest instead of going home. My roommate started getting worse and worse with acting like a child so I decided to move out. When I moved out my boyfriend said that I could come live with him and I've been living with him ever since. I guess living with him made us get a little too comfortable because when we got intimate we never used protection and he never pulled out. We were being ignorant at the fact that something could happen. We knew something could happen but we didn’t care. We were going to do what we wanted to do. Well, a few days ago I found out I was pregnant and now I don’t know what to do. At first I always said that I could get an abortion if this ever happened and I didn’t want it to. But since it happened things have changed. This baby is a part of me and I don’t want to get rid of it. My boyfriend is for abortion but he is getting used to the idea of me keeping. My parents think we should get married and start our lives together and I don’t think it’s a bad idea but he isn’t hearing that. He isn’t ready to get ready and now I feel like I’m dealing with it by myself. I’m not sure what to do but I know he better come around to doing something soon because I’m tired of doing this alone.

Life is funny

The way life goes is kind of funny. Since the beginning of this year, nothing has gone too good for me. I do not understand where this is all coming from! Was I that bad of a child or did I do something so bad that God had to get me back in every way possible. This just doesn’t make sense to me. It is the beginning of the year 2009 and I can truly say that since the very second of the beginning of the year nothing has gone right. I just wish that things could go good for me. Right now I feel as if things are going wrong because I don’t have God in my life anymore. My father is a preacher and his father is a preacher and many of my uncles are pastors and ministers in the church. I was basically raised in the church very religiously with very strict rules and guidelines to live by. In the past couple of years I have almost shut god totally out of my life and that’s when things started going wrong. My schooling started getting messed up, I was never stable. I was always upset or borderline depressed. I couldn’t think straight. I started doing things I never thought id do in my life. I couldn’t go to work without getting stressed out. All the college work I did didn’t matter because my credits didn’t transfer so I did a semester for no reason. I went to basic training. The hell of my life just to go to tech school and get targeted by a racist Bogart and get kicked out for chewing gum in class. I didn’t think I deserved what was going on but things never got better. I kept god out of my life and things continued to get worse. Now I'm starting to understand that I can’t do anything without him. He is my rock, my soul, my salvation and things will only get better if I continue to live by his will. I can no longer do things my way; I need to do things his way. My life will succeed once I start doing what I’m supposed to do and live by his word. I wonder what will happen next.

Ex-roomate

Payback is something that should happen when somebody does something to you that you didn’t deserve. Well. Even if you did deserve it, no one likes to be bamboozled. So always think of ways to pay people back if they do something to you. That’s what I always do. I used to have this roommate that was always doing things wrong and getting away with it. I was never her friend. I was just nice to her because she payed the other half of the bills. I might have liked her had she not been a ghetto house whore that had no morals or home training whatsoever. She always brought guys in and out the house continuously. Having sex with each and every one of them on different nights was becoming her job. She was always in an argument with somebody about nothing. She was always doing wrong things and getting away with them like stealing, cheating in school, lying on her fafsa, and food stamps. She was a disgusting person. She never cleaned up after herself, always left crap all over the house, and complained about me not doing my part. She had to have lost her mind because obviously she didn’t have one anywhere near her. After a while she started picking fights with me for no reason. I was gone all the time because I have an over night job and a boyfriend, and she annoyed the hell out of me so I didn’t like coming home. I always stayed at my boyfriend’s house. Every time I came home there was something else to clean up. It was getting ridiculous, so I decided to move out. When I told her she could find a new roommate she flipped her switch and started yelling and acting like the barbarian I always knew she was. I started moving out so she decided to put on a show and act out and try to fight me. I ignored her and kept packing my stuff. She brought her little friends over the house and her mom to come and act like immature little children towards me. So I decided to deal with it my own way so I was on the safe end. I told her landlord that she had illegal cable and internet which she did. I also told her that she let her male friends smoke weed in the apartments, which she also did. I also went to the school and told the school about her cheating habits, and we all know what happens when you cheat in college. You get the boot. So lesson learned on what not to do. Don’t air your dirty laundry and expect it to come back clean. Now her schooling and her home is gone. and why? Because she decided to act her shoe size and not her age.

Troubles all around

I seem to be stressed out a lot. In my life nothing ever seems to go right, but just when I feel like nothing can go worse in my life, it gets worse. I had the worst day ever the other day. I woke up ready for my day after a long night of studying hard. I was ready to take my test in school just knowing I was going to pass it. Within an hour later I found that I had failed the test. When I was moving out, I put a lot of my items in a storage unit and before I moved in, the unit manager told me that I shouldn’t leave trash laying around because id have to pay for it to be removed. Well when I was putting my stuff in the storage unit my cousin decided to throw a trash bag full of my old mail on the ground for pick up next to a pile of old furniture someone left laying around. Well. Nobody comes to pick up anything because your not supposed to throw trash out there in the first place. Well after I found out my test was a failure, I got a call from my storage unit telling me that I needed to pick up all my trash out of the unit or I wont be able to keep my stuff in the unit anymore. I got blamed for all the furniture that was sitting out there because I had the bag full of mail with my name on it. Can u say hard evidence or what? I don’t know how I get traced to everything no matter if I did it or not. Im just not someone you want to do something wrong around because you are definitely going to get caught. Then to top it off, my boyfriend came home to tell me a complaint was filed on me at work. Someone told my boss that me and another employee had been sleeping while we were at work. That is some messed up bologa and im done with being stressed out over a bunch of crap I have no control over. So I rewoud a bit, Smoked a black, and hopped in the shower. I was soon joined in the shower by my man who wanted to wash my back ad help rinse me off. He also gave me a massage when we got out. Then we played WWf smackdown in the bedroom when he was done. Im not worried about those things anymore. What a great stress reliever my man is.

Relationship problems

Normal relationships are always going to have their little tiffs and problems, but it seems like mine has them slightly more often than normal. My guy and me get into little disagreements on a regular basis. We get into arguments over the smallest things that shouldn’t even matter. We love each other so much, but we are so different its hard for us to live together. We recently moved in together and im starting to see things about my boyfriend that I didn’t see before. He is a very messy person although I shouldve known that because most guys in their twenties are. He says hes going to do a lot of things that he never does or he just says hes going to do them over and over again. For example, he has been telling me that he is going to keep the room clean for about a month now. Has it happened? No! as soon as he walks in the door he takes off his shoes in the middle of the floor, strips down to get into the shower and leaves his clothes all over the floor, and never picks up his stuff. I expect him to be tired a lot because of the simple fact that he gets up at 3 am to go to work and he comes home around 2, but it doesn’t make it ok to throw his stuff everywhere. It bugs me because im the one always cleaning up. Im also the one that’s always tripping over his ginormous shoes. Another thing that bugs me is when he takes a shower, he uses a different towel everyday. Ok, now he wants to have sanitary issues. Does he think of who is folding the laundry all the time? No! He also believes that my food is his food no matter who bought it. Uh, no. my food is my food no matter who bought it. If I decide to give you some that’s my choice, not your right as my boyfriend, and I don’t have to say yes to giving you any at all. He also always cuts me off in the middle of my sentences when im talking to talk, or get on the phone. He does uneccessary spending on things he wants instead of things he needs. He will starve for a week because he’ll buy a 400 dollar phone. Things like these bug me so much we get into arguments because I ask him nicely to do something different and he says he will, but he never does. Then he gets upset that im nagging him. Well, I wouldn’t have to nag him if he would just do what I asked him to in the first place.

Some Guys are sick, why do they think females are stupid

Ok. For one. I don’t know why guys can treat females any kind of way and get away with
it like its supposed to happen, then blame the female if she doesn’t want something to happen. Guys are getting ridiculous nowadays. They are starting to be more open with their pervertish ways. I went to go get my breaks fixed at the store the other day, and these two guys were inspecting it to see how much they would cost. When they were done I asked how much would it come to and one guy replied “ I’ll do it for 50 bucks and some back”, meaning he wanted my body for some body work done on my car, had he lost his mind? Another guy has been trying to talk to me and one of my co workers for the longest time. When he doesn’t get his way with one female he goes to her friend. He asked her did she want to have sex with him, and when she said no he had the nerve to ask me. Did he think we werent going to tell each other. He tried to buy me some new items that I wanted to go out on a date with him. It was getting ridiculous. I couldn’t stand it anymore. I wanted to bomb him and break his stuff. Guys don’t even know how to approach a female anymore. They think every female is a hoodrat. Every time a guy tries to stop me in the store or the mall he yells from across the mall “ ay, ay girl, come here” yea right! If they think thats going to get my attention, they have another thing coming. Then when I tell a guy that I already have a boyfriend, he decides to not care and keep proceeding with the current conversation thinking hes going to get whats in front of him. Uh yea, NOT! Then when you meet some guys they try to be your friend for as long as you have a boyfriend, then the minute you and your boyfriend break up thy want to try to put the moves on you like u didn’t know what they were up to in the first place. You just tried to give them the benefit of the doubt. I also know some guys who have over fifty porn movies and keeps old female underwear from past relations with females. That’s gross. Who wants to find another females underwear in their guys room when they just noticed that a pair of their own undies have gone missing.